wondering why i m born in this family

still worried about my studies as i really dont kw whether i can get in to oct intake, and also sometimes i m wondering why am i in this family as i m working part time only and is like normal for me to work until late nite then my father told mi that why i work until so late for, is it that you dont wanna study or wat, in my mind i was like erm.... nw i nth to do u wanna me to stay at home do nothing the whole day i think i cant do it i must well go out and earn some money for my spending that is all.