If only dreams can come true which will be the best

As i had a dream ytd, dreamt of her with mi goin shopping and buying things and also we were like sort of making fun of each other those kind like teasing each other ya, after that ya i was awaken by my phone sms

i lay my love on you ( cant bear to let her go really and seriously) :( :(

From the title you will tell from it i still cant bear to break up with my gf, cause on sat i went to my freshies gathering as expected i meet her so we nv really chat with each other jus some conversation over like teach her how to fly kite as we were at marina barrage flying kite and also when we were about to pack up i help her to find her things as i kw she will anyhow put and forget where is it le so i found the item that she wants and she say thank you to mi and after that ya it was slient le.
so when i went home i cry again as this is my first time into relationship and it end up this way so it takes time to heal but nw it seems it doesnt heal it had a very deep cut in my heart or i can say a deep woud in my heart which i think it takes longer to heal and i can say i nv had to cry for a gal for so long and whenever i go out i hear some love songs i tend to think of her all the happy moments spent with her and it really cant get out of my mind and tend to cry, also i cant get the mood to do things nw i dont kw why, really i feel like pouring out all my feeling to her and tell her to give mi a second chance but nt nw cause she is nw having a bit of stress nw so i dont wanna disturb her nw maybe one yr later ba when i get back to sch life ya. :(

breaks for nw

as i have drop out of poly le nw i m like taking a break from all the stress that i have accumulated the past two yrs which i also dont know why i take that course and end up dropping out of it thinking back again i gt this thinking of going back again but again no way if i go back again i have to study programming again and i m nt use to it man i still gt IGAI, DBIS, GMAPS but for all this is easy to pass but hmm i dont think so le, so for the mean time i will find jobs and work and wait for which intake i can go in ya, but one thing i know is that i still cant let go of her still thinking of her and it will make mi cry, it takes time to heal i dont kw when it will heal man :(

tml i will be going to shatech to take information and see if i will to go shatech or engine

As i still dont know where to go yet,but last time my final decision was to go shatech and alot of my friends encrouage mi dn nw was confuse again so intend to go shatech and see for myself wat is the job prospect like and other stuff ya

In a confusion nw

Dont know what to do nw as i have drop out of school but going either to shatech or engine again but if i go shatech i will be learning a whole brand new things if i go engine i will learn the things that i might kw but if i go engine i dont kw whether i will cope with the stress or not that is wat i m worry about and if i go to shatech i also dont kw wat i will learn i gt interest in cooking but then again wat is the job scope for shatech that is the mysterious thing ya i kw i will start from the bottom but nw is like really confuse man n another thing i have been thinking of is have i make the right choice to be drop out of sch and study again

really really confuse and dont kw wat to do seriously someone or GOD can help mi!! argh!!!

first is drop out of sch wat come next break up with gf

it hurt mi alot when i break up with my gf i was like crying when i went to sleep but one thing for sure is that i really cant bear to let her go she is my type of gal and at that time i think i give her abit too much pressure le so ya they is why will become this situation but i promise her that i wont do that again but in the end is still the same i really really dont wanna break up with her one is jus wanted her to give mi one more chance that is all and also i really really cant bear to let her go :(