waiting for next month to come

next month and i will apply for oct intake and hope i can get in to the course that i want and restart i kw is abit too late for my age but there is a saying in chinese, huo dao loa xue dao lao so ya i m goin to do that and really hope that i can get in that is all if not i think i m goin to apply to private sch to study diploma.... why i choose the wrong course i have been asking myself this few weeks and still havent come to a conclusion yet though i kw that i choose the wrong course cause i wanted to have other kinds of experience but nw i have hit the wall so i really hope i can get in to poly again and start a brand new life of my journey ya and i this time wont choose the wrong course again and will work my way to the end ya, speaking of which ya i that time promise my ex that i will complete the course no matter what happens but when you not say try your best but i cant understand programming and try my best to understand but cant so i wont wanna study this course but come to think of it if i appeal back i will wanna give my fullest = 100% * 100% to it as i really dont kw whether i can apply back to poly anot ya, and also that time if i appeal i maybe wont break up with my gf le :( sometimes i still thinking about her :(